“My Preferred Partner…”
… would be intellectually stimulating and radically intimate. That does not mean that they have to subscribe to the rhetoric of academia that has become institutions of higher education, this dispersal of “knowledge(s)” produced by white men. However, they do have to push past surface level “deep dialogues.” Unfortunately, I’ve created a rather standard of sorts that entails queer approaches to being, from complex personhood to critical consciousness. I do want them to be able to engage in a politics of discomfort, risk, and liberation. I want them to know how to make healthy and sustainable approaches to their being, this “loving oneself before loving anybody else” sort of discourse.
God, that’s a lot to ask for. I recall one of my friends asking me if I wanted to date someone… who is… I forgot how we framed it… something along the lines of… well… like what I mentioned above. We both agreed. I want to use the word hyper-aware, but I don’t think it was that. Anyway… I guess that is a lot to ask for. No, it is, but I am always willing to work and compromise per se. I don’t really like the word compromise. I’m trying to think up of a word that has to do with sharing, but I don’t know.
I feel like I want to take back a lot of what I said because it sounds so demanding of labor. I labor a lot as well. I am so complex as fuck. Gosh.
